Still healing

Most of the time I feel like I'm okay now with the miscarriage. I haven't cried since the Saturday after it happened, and my life has pretty much gone back to normal. But every once in a while I get really sad when I think about it. I know so many people who are pregnant or just had a baby, and while I am very happy for all of them, I can't help but feel sad that I'm not one of them. My baby never got a chance at life, and that was not my choice. I know we'll conceive again and that chances are everything will be fine, but it still hurts.

Marcie is no longer in complete remission. She went for chemo today and they found a lesion on her tongue. They're giving her the drug that sent her in remission so quickly when she first started chemo, so hopefully that will clear it up. I'm worried that when she is done with chemo that it will just come raging back. I hope not, but I'm worried about it.

I'm just wondering when something good is going to happen for us. First Marcie's cancer, then the miscarriage. Can't we get a break?